Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Personal Feelings

     Heads up I'm about to talk about some personal feelings I have about myself. The why is because I feel the desire to get them out and I'm not entirely certain I want to talk about them so thus the blog entry. I only caution you dear reader because this will not likely be overly entertaining (or at least less so then my previous posts). Things are about to get a tad personal, at least on this end and if you don't it like then please skip this entry entirely for things should return to relative normalcy after this. And away we go....

     My name is Michael Hughes and I'm 21 and suffer from a variety of mental issues (then again who doesn't?). For better or worse (for me it's the latter) I'm probably one of the most neurotic people you'll ever meet should you get to know me. My memory is, frankly, fucking terrible when it comes to remembering specifics of any sort. I suffer from an extreme case of laziness to the point that I failed to graduate high school because I didn't really do homework (made to the end of senior year at least I suppose). I have a horrible and consuming addiction to video games which, you guessed it, played a major role in my failure to graduate (mind you I'm not blaming the games, I blame myself). My intense procrastination in combination with my numerous other issues has led me to effectively and completely waste the past 3 years of my life on bad habits and whatever money I got on video games. The worst part is that I've known what a colossal failure I am since roughly freshman year of highschool and that I'm pretty sure that my dad can't get anymore disappointed in me.
     I've been given so much and yet I don't deserve any of it and if it weren't for my very tolerant parents I would've been living on the streets. As of now my life is one of relative luxury though one that I don't deserve and sometimes in my darkest moments I wish I had the balls to just kill myself and end it but alas I don't. I recall one summer where I kept riding my bike during particularly hot days with minimal food and water as some sort of absurd method of killing myself. Mind you this was something like 3 years ago and I think a girl may have been involved.
     Speaking of girls it should come as no surprise that I've managed to fail in that aspect as well. I think I got lucky with my first girlfriend in that was quick and that I curiously was the dumper (sounds harsh but in my defense I felt terrible afterwards). However a couple of months later and I met Heather and she was fucking awesome and so was her family. To this day I will regret dumping her and the reason was that a former lifelong friend who I thought was at the time was significantly prettier (keywords there are "at the time") admitted a few weeks later that she had a crush on me. This next part is going to sound incredibly disgusting but I'm pretty sure I dumped Heather the same night I found out (over the internet too as if that wasn't already horrible enough) and that's basically the only reason. I'd love to try and justify it by saying I was 14 at the time but fuck that I feel like a complete monster who should die alone whenever I think about her (her being Heather). For all I know maybe I should but anyways my relationship with the aforementioned former lifelong friend lasted for roughly a month or two. Once again I was the dumper only this time it was a bit better in that I at least had a half decent reason which was that she told me she loved me and compared us to Romeo and Juliet 2 weeks into our relationship (keep in mind we're both 14 at the time). I got back with her senior year figuring that it might work now that we were more emotionally stable at the time. However I'm an idiot with women and that crashed and burned in an emotional hell fire and again believe it or not I was the dumper. I take some small comfort in knowing that it was justified due to the fact that she was moving to another city hours away and that her parents refused to allow me to see her. I hated them for that for awhile but in hindsight perhaps that while they were fucking crazy they saw something that we didn't. The night after I dumped her she left a voice mail crying and begging me not to end it (it being the relationship). That message still haunts me to this day whenever I think about her.

     On a lighter note I think that's about all I have to say on this episode of "Michael Bares Some of His Repressed Emotions On His Blog That Nobody Really Reads". If you actually did read this then congratulations on making it through, I wish I had an awesome prize to give you like a pony or a cookie but alas I don't *queue sad face* so instead I'll give you an internet hug and the promise of a awesome and completely unrelated story next post. With that I bid you a fond farewell until next time.

     -Mike, the Neon Gecko


Sunday, April 15, 2012

Something New

     So I've been doing some thinking and that thinking has led to more thinking and so on and so on. Anywho I've come to the realization that I want to be a writer and that I kind of have an affinity for words. What this means is that I'll actually finally be dusting off the old blog and actually updating it for "realzies". Currently the plan is to do a short story of various lengths and subject matter on a regular basis and hope someone reads them. If you happen to be one of those individuals and happen to have feedback of the constructive sort then by all means do share it, especially if it's something minor.   
     In other news I finally got to watching Community and my god that show is hilarious. If you have Hulu plus it's all there up the current episodes and you NEED to watch it, like now. Also saw Cabin in the Woods which I'm going to go ahead and crown personal movie of the year thus far. All you really need to know is that it's a horror comedy and involves Joss Whedon. And with that I bid you all farewell until next time.  

     -Mike, the Gecko                                                        

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

So I was chillin in this place called Terraria...

          Greetings! I've finally gotten around to making another blog post and this time I have a particular subject that I wish to speak about and that is a little game called Terraria.
          Terraria is an indie game that was released May 16 of this year and is an action/rpg/adventure game. To be a little more specific think Minecraft meets Castlevania. Basically you create your character, create a world (of which you can have up to 5 at a time), and then proceed to "survive and thrive". Much like Minecraft it's a sandbox and without a driving goal beyond "get better gear/build an awesome fort/shelter". However the combat is rather fun and building stuff can be neat although for me designing cool looking structures is a bit tricky due to it being in 2D. It also has multiplayer which only adds to the fun. Ah but it gets better! Free, consistent, and rather substantial updates and it's all for $10 which is mind-blowing. So yea bottom-line is that if you like action/rpg/adventure and don't want to spend a whole lot then I cannot recommend this game enough.
           On an semi-unrelated-to-this-topic-but-related-to-this-blog note I'm hopefully going to start getting more posts out and seeing as how I've been playing a lot of games recently they'll mainly be reviews although I'll probably toss in a "regular" post to mix things up a bit or even combine the two (shock!). Also if you happen to read this and have ideas or constructive criticism please let me hear it. I'm still fairly new to blogging beyond little status updates on twitter/google+/facebook so feedback is MUCH appreciated. Anywho that's all I got to say for now, I hope you enjoyed reading my ramblings and with that I bid you farewell.
           Oh and before I forget Terraria is available on Steam for the aforementioned $10 and here's a Beginner's Guide to Terraria and here's a screenshot:

            -Mike, the Neon Gecko


Sunday, September 4, 2011

My First Blog Post.

        Greetings to anyone currently reading this. Let us begin with an introduction shall we? My name is Mike and I'm a 20-year-old geek/gamer who's got a lovely combination of A.D.D./minor O.C.D. I also happen to love coffee and cats. Now on to the purpose of this here blog: basically this is going to be my virtual, public diary of a sort. I'll be essentially talking about whatever the hell I'm feeling at the time and I'll be updating it whenever the mood strikes me which is to say pretty sporadically. That's pretty much all I have to say on the matter for now so with that I bid you farewell.

          -Mike, the Neon Gecko